Tout perdre – Chapitre 10

Ça a bataillé sec pour ces tubes. Les premiers jours ont été violents, il y a eu des morts, des estropiés. Mais cela ne dura pas longtemps. Non pas que les Sans-Riens soient revenus à la raison et décidèrent que chacun pourrait passer une nuit pour laisser sa place à quelqu’un d’autre la nuit d’après. Non, mon instinct avait raison, le Gouvernement avait bel et bien un plan, et il avait décidé de jeter l’éthique, le respect de l’être humain une bonne fois pour toutes.

C’est pour cela que vous lisez ces lignes, je m’apprête à venger les miens, à me venger moi-même. Je n’aurai pas le temps de vous dire si la vengeance est cathartique ou inutile, mais, je vous expliquerai cela plus tard, à la fin, sûrement.

Mais qu’est-ce que ces caissons nous ont-ils fait à la fin ?

Les premiers jours où les Sans-Riens avaient passé leurs nuits dans ces tubes, rien de spécial, excepté, évidemment les batailles sanglantes, ne s’était passé. Ceux qui avaient eu l’opportunité de passer quelques nuits à l’intérieur étaient heureux, et encore plus déterminés à garder ce privilège pour leur petite personne.

Ce n’est qu’au bout de deux semaines que les choses prirent une tournure que je qualifierais de crime contre l’humanité.

Les privilégiés disparurent. Tout le monde savait qui dormait dans un caisson, ces personnes étaient devenus des chef(fe)s, des leaders, des personnes que certains admirés, à qui beaucoup léché les bottes pour, peut-être un jour, avoir la chance de passer ne serait-ce que quelques minutes dans ces engins. C’était aussi dangereux d’en être propriétaire, les démunies suivaient ces privilégiés, tentant parfois de leur trancher la carotide, de les piéger, pour prendre leur place.

Et une nuit, les caissons s’ouvrirent d’eux-mêmes sans aucune âme à l’intérieur.

Vous pourriez penser que ce n’était qu’un événement anodin, mais laissez moi vous expliquer pourquoi ça ne l’était pas.

Tout d’abord, un Sans-Rien quittant cet abri de luxe, en plein milieux de la nuit, sans que personne ne le voit, été impossible. Comme je vous l’ai expliqué, les caissons attiraient la convoitise de tout le monde. Plusieurs personnes étaient autour, quelqu’un aurait vu l’occupant sortir. Une information qui paraît anodine mais dont vous vous êtes sûrement fait la réflexion à l’instant, il y avait possibilité de faire ses besoins naturels dans le tube. Le caisson, rappelez-vous, a une hauteur de près de deux mètres et quarante centimètres. Même s’il fallait une certaine souplesse, il suffisait d’ouvrir un hublot qui cachait un bidet et faire vos besoins. Donc non, personne n’avait à sortir du tube pour quoi que ce soit.

Mais ce n’est pas là le meilleur argument pour prouver que cette situation était étrange, la meilleure, c’était que toutes les personnes qui avaient dormi cette nuit-là, dans le caisson avaient disparu.

Aucune trace de leur présence. Les propriétaires avaient aménagé à leur grès l’intérieur de leur havre. Certains, surtout les leaders de gang, avaient gravé ou tagué leurs initiales ou les symboles de leur clan à l’extérieur et à l’intérieur de leur possession.

Mais en une nuit, c’était comme si le caisson, à l’intérieur, n’avait jamais accueilli quelqu’un. Tout était propre, sans gravure ni graffiti, pas d’effets personnels. Ils s’étaient évaporés.



Ode To A Redemption (A Poem)

FYI: I am not fluent in English, I’m trying to be at least. Sorry for the potentials mistakes. Feel free to correct me in the comment section.

This poem was inspired by Red Dead Redemption 2

Once there was a time
we would have kill for a dime.

No past,
forget the West,
here in the East,
feel like an undesirable guest.
No laugh, just pain,
and death.

Dreams of majestic beast in the wild,
a free roaming stag.
Everybody here is out of their minds.

Get on horses, run free,
no responsibilities,
no duties.
Just you and me.

It feels like the past,
come at me too fast.

How did we end up here ?
Starting to regret a lifestyle that I’d used to love.
Opened my eyes, should have been with you.
Give each other another shot,
I don’t have much left,
how could I dare,
express myself,
after so many lives destroyed,
by my own hands.

I am ashamed,
and scared.
But I’m waiting for no heaven
‘cause on Earth, I acted like a demon.
I am ready, to join the devil.

This is too easy,
to say sorry,
to ask for forgiveness.

They’re some things you simply can not change,
no going back,
nor going further,
until the end.

I’m roting from the inside,
the mad men I am,
show itself in the outside.

I will not lie,
I had good times,
the ones with you.

You’ll see me next,
six feet under the dirt,
if I have the chance,
to end it all,
with some honor.

As I try to make peace with my God,
I know, coming from me,
this is odd,
Thousand of questions,
starting all with why.
I’ll never have the answer,
I just have to tell you my goodbyes.

Your on my mind,
you were more precious,
than every gold I’ve stolen.
I guess this is the moment,
when we’re about to leave this life,
that everything seem so simple.

Maybe I should forgive everyone,
to disappear,
but know that for you,
I would have gone
a hundred thousand miles,
just to see your eyes.

Maybe one more last kiss,
you’re all I’ve ever missed,
a relationship
gone in the mist.

What a savage I was,
running and ruining
the poisoned gift of a life. Living a lie.

Nothing makes sens,
civilisation is putting fences,
around a property,
working days and night,

That wasn’t the kind of life I’ve ever wanted,
nor a life that I’ve lived.

On the run, constantly,
friends murdered,
the worries.
It took its toll,
on my mind,
on my soul.

I hope that for you, the future hold,
a respectable life,
happiness, that you don’t necessarily
find in dollar bills.

I’ve been hunting for it,
never had enough.
Was I addicted to violence ?
You didn’t deserve that life,
no future,
a constant blur.

You’ll live the rest of your existence,
knowing I was yours once.

I hope that you’ll live fully,
knowing that all along,
you were in my heart.

I was lucky,
to ride along with you,
even if it was on a rocky road.
Your love was priceless to me,
I was too proud,
to express it,
in front of you face.

I regret too much thing,
but now it’s times,
to go away,
to write down my last will, pay back no depts nor bills
and to spread my wings.


A Rider On The Storm (A Short Story)

FYI: I am not fluent in English, I’m trying to be at least. Sorry for the potentials mistakes. Feel free to correct me in the comment section.

As the wind blows threw my hair (yes, I’ve lost my hat in the firefight. Better this than my head !), I’m pushing Ernesto at full speed.

Brave horse, brave boy. Never scared of a gun shot nor roaming at full pace trough the dark night filled by a storm. Thunder, heavy rain and that brutal winds that push colds rain drops on my skins like thousand of needles prickling me.

It maybe sounds awful for you to imagine yourself in that situation but my friend, a storm is a dream gateway setting for running away from a bank heist.

The law can follow me, it’s impossible to see at 25 yards around. Can you really see what’s the thief even looks like in those conditions ? I can tell you, it’s like trying to find a shadow in the darkness. It’s dangerous for me to, but I trust myself and my horse, we make a great team, we complete each other.

The only things left to do for them ? Waiting !
Waiting ! The worse beginning for a law man trying to catch a thief.

I’m rich, yeah, of course from the money I’ve stoled, but I also have the luxury of time !

Every minute is a wasted one for the sheriff and his boys. I’m gaining more and more ground, they’re losing more and more opportunity to ever found me !

I bet ya’ that I could go back there one of these days, minding my own business, sip a whisky at the saloon and speaking with the local and they’ll never recognize my ass !

But I won’t do that, let’s not tempt the devil. He has been good to me so far, or maybe it was God.

Will God allow His sheep to be robbed of their money won honestly, through the hardship of a precarious life dedicated to provide for their families ? I don’t know. I’ve seen many poor bastards begging for His help before dying. He never got to help them with one of those miracles we hear He can do from those preachers everywhere.

Maybe God is on my side, after all ! He let me rob a bank to show His followers that money took too much place in their life, in their heart. And I’m just His pawn.

I’m not complaining about it ! Thanks God ! Help me whenever You want from now on ! I will gladly serve You if Your plans for me is: to rob more greedy cunts without any single regret. I won’t go to church thought. I have my limits too !

Heck, I can’t imagine everyone discovering that God will be on their side if they choose to rob from the rich and powerful.

Those rich cunts, never rich enough ! They seem to always want more ! Watch ‘em go to church to clear their guilty souls from the sins they commit on a daily basis.

Does God let us create gunpowder to watch us destroy one another, to judge the brave, the coward, the sinner, the poor and the (filthy) rich? To see where what kind of extremes we can go for one of our antic? Or maybe the devil gave us those tools of destruction. Like Prometheus who stole fire from the Gods to give it to the poor bastards that we were without it.

Of course, if you look at it closely, all religions kinda look the same.

But what am I boring you with?

Let’s conclude with those words : This is America, land of the free. This is God’s country, and I’m nobody to judge Him.

Now that I’m far away with that money, watch me wasting it on booze, alcool and gambling.

God, the hunt for money is not over for me, may I serve You well by stealing. I’ll dedicate from now on every stolen dime and dollars to You !

And for you dear friend don’t step on my toes, bank robbing is my thing, found your own way for your redemption !

God Bless America !


A Pinkerton’s Warnings (A short story)

FYI: I am not fluent in English, I’m trying to be at least. Sorry for the potentials mistakes. Feel free to correct me in the comment section.

As I lay in this dens bush, the outlaws are drinking, singing indecent lullaby and exposing their latest successful crime like grandiloquent theatric actor with each other. Of course, those horrid story are embellished, coming out off their mouths.

I follow those bandits for two weeks now. They move often, from state to state, making their couple of weeks of stays a time of nightmares for the locals.

Robbing the poor and the rich folks that roam their lands, killing for a few dimes, stealing diligence, bar fights, rapes, you name it.

The reign of terror of those outlaws is coming to an end. The world has changed gentleman !

The United State is starting to hold up to its name and promises. We are uniting. It took time a good amount of death and misery to reach this ideal.

We, Pinkerton, are a federal agency charged to take down criminals who still haven’t understood that this is the end of impunity for those outlaws.

We have the means, we have the mens and the laws and even the President by our side.

The criminals only got their ideal. Wich belong to an ancient and savage era.

Modernity’s on it’s way. No more gunslingers, no more duels in the middle of the street, no more gangs.

Why did I follow those men for two weeks without interfering with their misdemeanor ?

Gathering proof. We want them to hang on nooses. They have to leave this world that don’t want them and, frankly, never needed them either.

As I am watching them laugh and throwing up their cheap moonlights, I just imagine myself putting a rope around their neck.

Sure, maybe a couple a them have some sort of code of conduct but the simple fact that they are riding together prove that they do not belong here either.

Show me your friends and I’ll tell you who you really are.

Those criminals talks about moral but they all are ready to sell their mother for a lighter sentence. The hanging noose, a simple rope frighten those bastards who can kill you for just looking at them the wrong way.

The curious things about those animals it’s that they know we are on to them. They even met us, exchanged fierce firefight with us, but they still think that somehow, we will let them do their crime. They bury their heads in the sand, but they will finish 6 feets under the ground. Well, if someone feels like digging holes for them. I don’t think anybody will go through this hardship for a single one of those maggots.

See, we are on to them. We know, we see, we gather proof, testimony. Their downfall is near. Society is ready… no even better, willing to get rid of them.

I deplore the amount of time we are offering them. They are, in some way, lucky that I am not in charge of their eradication. With me, no trials, just a bullet between the eyes. Quick, simple, effective. That would be the perfect way to end this non-sens.

But I will obey and keep a close watch on those fuckers. Discipline and obedience is key to a civilized society. And I will make sure to look at every single one of their cadavers, spit on them and carry on serving the law, the justice for the emerging and perfect civilisation. For the futur.

The time has come !

Signed : a Pinkerton agent


There’s A Killer On The Road (A Short Story)

FYI: I am not fluent in English, I’m trying to be at least. Sorry for the potentials mistakes. Feel free to correct me in the comment section.

« – Go now, let’s go !

  • What the fuck happened over there, shit !
  • Come on faster !
  • Yeah, but will you tell me where are Tim and Bryan for Christ’s sake ?
  • Dude, it’s all turned into a shit show in there !
  • Well I guess I already know that because you came back alone ! What was those gunshots that I’ve heard ? It was supposed to be a fine calculated job, no victim !
  • Dude, we thought we had it all under control. Everybody knew the plan and what he had to do but that… fucking security guard decided to be a hero ! Like he was paid enough to care about a robbery !
  • If you let you guard down man, they’ll take you out for sure.
  • What do you fucking know about a bank a robbery ! Shut the hell up and do your job, driving !
  • Well excuse me for being worried about bringing home one dude instead of three ! What happened to them !
  • Faster !
  • I’m at full speed ! Get out if you think you could run faster you shit ! Answer me ! Where are Tim and Bryan ?!
  • Tim got shot in the right shoulder by the security guard and Bryan was instantly killed by a bystander in the bank.
  • What ? And you came out of it unharmed !
  • Tim was badly injured but he could still fire his gun. We exchanged a copious numbers of bullets with the cops and the civilian. We killed the officer first, the bystander emptied is Smith&Wesson on us, Bryan took a bullet in the head… He died instantly. When the civilian started to reload, we took the opportunity to shower him with bullets and that wannabe hero died. Then, time started running out so Tim was guarding the civilians, I took care of the banker who opened the safe, took the money in my duffle bag and when I’ve came back, Tim was bleeding badly. I think that he had been hit sooner during the fire exchange with ether the civilian or the guard. At first, I’ve thought it was in the shoulder but he was hit in the left lung. Had to choose between him and the money so I’ve choose him but he refused and told me to go. To secure the money you see. He told me good luck and said he would cover my exit just in case someone decided to play hero… and here I am now.
  • Fuck. For real ? Men you’re full of shit ! I knew you were a coward at the second I laid eyes on you !
  • Men fuck you ! I did what had to be done !
  • Come on, you could have carried Tim with you !
  • Dude, I was literally carrying millions of dollars in a bag ! Money is heavy but you wouldn’t know this because you are our fucking gateway driver !
  • Man, I can fire a gun, be careful with what you said ! Can’t believe you left Tim to get die or… Wait… shit ! Was he the one who fired his gun just before you came running to the car ?
  • Yes I’ve told you, he was covering me !
  • You fucking lier ! He was trying to shoot you because you’re the one who killed Bryan ! »

Rami died on the spot, shot by Aubrey.

« – You haven’t see that one coming isn’t it ? Getaway driver my ass ! »

Throwing the body out of the car, Aubrey drove West.

Nothing was going accordant to the plan, he saw the flashing lights of law enforcement cars reflecting on his rear view mirror.

Taking his handgun, he fired at the blinding lights. He received a salve of bullets as an answer.

The car stopped going forward almost immediately.

He had a two possibility now. Run or facing the cops.

To this day, the faith of the five million dollars is still unknown. But they’re tainted in blood, sweat, tears and betrayal, like every currency in this world.


Mauvaise réputation, La véritable histoire d’Emmet Dalton Tome 1 par Ozanam & Bazin

Quatrième de couverture :

– Pourquoi raconter la vie des Dalton ? Vous devriez prendre des héros.

– Oui, mais le public préféra voir un film de bandits dont ils ont entendu le nom.

– Putain de célébrité.

Tagada tagada voilà les Daltons !

Oui j’ai osé la chanson de Joe Dassin !

Allons, nous avons tous dans notre inconscient collectif, en France du moins, les personnages de bandits que sont les Daltons dans la célèbre BD Lucky Luck. Mais saviez-vous qu’ils avaient vraiment existé ?! Moi non.

Hey bien, cette BD est surprenante. J’ai appris, selon le point de vue d’Emmet Dalton, l’histoire du gang des frères Dalton. Rien à voir évidement avec ceux du Lonesome Cowboy Lucky Luck… Quoique…

Je ne saurais dire si cette version est vraie ou non, il serait intéressant de voir quel documents et sources ont été utilisé pour écrire cet ouvrage. Je sais qu’Emmet Dalton a écris un livre sur la vraie histoire des frères hors-la-loi, je me le suis d’ailleurs procuré, mais je ne l’ai pas encore lu.

En tous cas, les bandits et justiciers du Farwest nous fascinent n’est-ce pas ? Si oui, vous serez servis avec cet album.

Les dessins sont épurés, simples mais efficaces. Les décors sont parfois laissés un peu de côté au profit des personnages et de l’action mais ce n’est point dérangeant.

L’utilisation de la couleur est plutôt atypique, de mon point de vue, car les planches ont l’air d’avoir été recouverts d’un filtre vert. Pourquoi ? Aucune idée pour ma part. C’est curieux, original, atypique et mystérieux.

Peut-être aurais-je des réponses dans le tome 2, car cette histoire est en deux tomes. Comme souvent, je trouve les BD trop courtes mais c’est un art… et un business.

Je conseil cet ouvrage si vous aimez les westerns et les légendes du far west et si vous aussi, vous avez envie de connaître la vraie histoire derrières la légende des Daltons. Par contre, pas de Lucky Luck dans les parages ! Même pas son ombre !

Les Dalton et leurs crimes semblent refléter l’époque difficile qu’était l’Ouest Américain à cette période. Par eux, les artistes de cet album nous donnent la possibilité de voir ce qu’était l’Amérique à l’époque où la modernité s’imposait dans une partie du pays encore sauvage et parfois inexploré, ne se laissant pas facilement amadouer par le « progrès ».


Hell’s Angels de Hunter S. Thompson

Quatrième de couverture :

« Nous, mon pote, on est des irréductibles. Dans une Amérique conditionnée à quatre-vingt-dix-neuf pour cent, on est les un pour cents d’irréductibles inconditionnels, et on crache dans leur soupe. Alors, mon pote, viens pas me parler Sécu et contredanses – parce que, laisse-moi te dire, tu prends ta femme, ton banjo, ta bécane et tu te tires. On a eu cent fois à se battre, et on s’en est toujours tirés à coups de poing et de botte. Laisse moi te dire, mon pote, que sur la route, on est les rois. »

Année 1960. Hunter S. Thompson passe un an avec les Hell’s Angels, des bikers qui se considèrent comme « la plus redoutable horde motorisée de toute l’histoire de la chrétienté ». En retraçant leur histoire, en décrivant leurs beuveries et leurs bagarres, le futur auteur de Las Vegas Parano aura façonné l’un des principaux mythes de la contre-culture américaine.

Le fameux journalisme Gonzo de Hunter S. Thompson, le « journaliste hors-la-loi », la tête brûlée, ne pouvait être que la seule personne à s’aventurer 1 ans avec les Hell’s Angels, un gang de motard qui connu ses heures de gloire peu après 1960 grâce à leurs comportements, leurs looks et surtout leur Harley Davidson.

Il suit ses cavaliers hors-la-loi des temps modernes pendant une année. Entre beuverie, bastons, sexe, drogue et déboires avec la police et la justice. Thompson est au milieu des déboires de ces bikers, il écrit ses articles, débats et parlent avec eux.

Ils sont jeunes, se sentent reclus de la société et se veulent les derniers hommes libres. Sauf que la police et la justice les talonnent. Entre accusation d’agression envers des agents de polices, de civiles, de bars et stations services misent à sac, violes collectifs, agressions sexuelles, les Angels se font une réputation… Grâce aux médias de masses qui s’en mêlent.

Hunter étudie l’influence de ce médias sur le gang, ils gagnent une immense notoriété, partout où ils passent, ils deviennent un objets de curiosité, une attraction. Pendant que certains les détestent, d’autres les admires. Mais les Angels se retrouvent perdus, voir diviser devant le fait qu’ils sont maintenant des stars et non des marginaux.

Hunter S. Thompson est l’un des écrivains qui le fascinent le plus, avec Hemingway.

Je conseil si vous êtes intéressés par se genre de sujet mais certains passages sont difficiles à encaisser