FYI: I am not fluent in English, I’m trying to be at least. Sorry for the potentials mistakes. Feel free to correct me in the comment section.
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This poem was inspired by Red Dead Redemption 2
Once there was a time
we would have kill for a dime.
No past,
forget the West,
here in the East,
feel like an undesirable guest.
No laugh, just pain,
pest,
and death.
Dreams of majestic beast in the wild,
a free roaming stag.
Everybody here is out of their minds.
Get on horses, run free,
no responsibilities,
no duties.
Just you and me.
It feels like the past,
come at me too fast.
How did we end up here ?
Starting to regret a lifestyle that I’d used to love.
Opened my eyes, should have been with you.
Give each other another shot,
I don’t have much left,
how could I dare,
express myself,
after so many lives destroyed,
by my own hands.
I am ashamed,
and scared.
But I’m waiting for no heaven
‘cause on Earth, I acted like a demon.
I am ready, to join the devil.
This is too easy,
to say sorry,
to ask for forgiveness.
They’re some things you simply can not change,
no going back,
nor going further,
until the end.
I’m roting from the inside,
the mad men I am,
show itself in the outside.
I will not lie,
I had good times,
the ones with you.
You’ll see me next,
six feet under the dirt,
if I have the chance,
to end it all,
with some honor.
As I try to make peace with my God,
I know, coming from me,
this is odd,
Thousand of questions,
starting all with why.
I’ll never have the answer,
I just have to tell you my goodbyes.
Your on my mind,
you were more precious,
than every gold I’ve stolen.
I guess this is the moment,
when we’re about to leave this life,
that everything seem so simple.
Maybe I should forgive everyone,
to disappear,
but know that for you,
I would have gone
a hundred thousand miles,
just to see your eyes.
Maybe one more last kiss,
you’re all I’ve ever missed,
a relationship
gone in the mist.
What a savage I was,
running and ruining
the poisoned gift of a life. Living a lie.
Nothing makes sens,
civilisation is putting fences,
around a property,
working days and night,
weekly,
monthly,
yearly.
That wasn’t the kind of life I’ve ever wanted,
nor a life that I’ve lived.
On the run, constantly,
friends murdered,
the worries.
It took its toll,
on my mind,
on my soul.
I hope that for you, the future hold,
a respectable life,
happiness, that you don’t necessarily
find in dollar bills.
I’ve been hunting for it,
never had enough.
Was I addicted to violence ?
Sure.
You didn’t deserve that life,
no future,
a constant blur.
You’ll live the rest of your existence,
knowing I was yours once.
I hope that you’ll live fully,
proudly,
knowing that all along,
you were in my heart.
I was lucky,
to ride along with you,
even if it was on a rocky road.
Your love was priceless to me,
I was too proud,
to express it,
in front of you face.
I regret too much thing,
but now it’s times,
to go away,
to write down my last will, pay back no depts nor bills
and to spread my wings.
Jaskiers
Jaskiers 